When I got it, I was initially disappointed because it didn't feel like it had enough beads stuffed in the pillow, but as time progressed, I got used to it, and honestly don't mind the feeling of it anymore. It's super soft, the beads feel great, and has a good feel to hug, lay down on, etc. It did seem to be risky getting this pillow, but I'm really satisfied with the final outcome. Thanks a bunch TOM!